January 5, 2010

Ok, well I got through December! Let me tell you it wasn't that easy!! Learning a lot, finding out that good stress can tire you as easily as bad, and adding two new members to the family....Did I mention turning janoter year older, my son another year older....

So here I am in January. As some of you may know, I am trying to lose weight and I have been trying since September. Not working. So, then I had to figure out why. Sometimes that's not easy and when it comes down to owning up to the "why" that isn't much fun, or easy either!! How is it that I can raise 2 grown sons, and have my 2 daughters in middle school, and let my "schooling" go right out the window. I'l give you such an example. Reading some books and doing research on Diabetes, and weight loss, at the very beginning of the book it asks me a couple of the following questions:

1. Do you have self reguard? (Does that have something to do with crossing the street by myself?)

2. Do you have self assurance?

3. Who are you losing weight for? (my husgand, my kids were all wrong answers!)

A few "have to's were also listed:

1. Organizaation is key. (Has anyone seen my van keys?)

2. You ust have structure.

As you can tell by some of my comments, if this was a test in school I would not have passed. So, I had to send myself back to school. I pulled out my oldest daughters "Children's dictionary", I mean we are talking about going back to elementary school. I had to look up the words "regard", "commitment", "peace" (did you know the synonym for peace is "calm"?), and about 7 other words. So mujch for me bragging about my excellent grades in English class.

So, now I am moving along. I want to control my time, as I have let time control me, and I must love myself enough to stick to this new lifestyle, and get healthy...because, seriously, I deserve it. Better get to doing my reading, orgainziaing my day tomorrow, and putting structure back into my life.....